i'm back...I'm stuffed, i'm full..and i'm bloated...not very comfortable..drank too much..but oh well..it has to last me throughout the day.. hmm...why do people have blogs? Is it an online diary? I don't think so..aren't diaries supposed to be private? by having your diary online, the whole world can view it..and even if you don't advertise it someone is going to find it sooner or later...the song perfect by simple plan just came on and it got me thinking about other things..so the blog issue i conclude that blogs are just a medium to convey certain thoughts and feelings and share what's been going on in our lives with others..moving on..'Cuz we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and We can't go back. I'm sorry I can't be perfect..that's the chorus for the song.... Who's perfect?? noone is, but everyone wants to be and are trying to be perfect..but do we really want to be perfect?? being perfect is boring..if i was perfect, i would have come home from school everyday and hit the books..and ensured that i had 7 hours of sleep every night..i would take my daily vitamins without fail..and i would have scored straight As in all my exams..and i would have perfect discipline..i would wake at 5am every morning to exercise..i would make my bed, clean my room, i would do everything i'm supposed to do perfectly..i would lead the perfect lifestyle..i would have a perfect day, everyday..but is that what i really want?? it sounds boring..what about having fun? I would have the perfect fun..and i have no idea what that is..i wouldn't want to get up at 5 in the morning to exercise..its good for me no doubt but i don't want that..maybe some days i'll do it but i want to be able to get up when i get up..and come home and just slouch on the couch and watch tv..i want my mom to nag at me..sounds funny right but i'm sure that in a perfect world i would miss my mom nagging at me..maybe then we'll have perfect nagging..haha...and unlike in a perfect world, i want to do stuff..stuff that may not be right but is fun..and i want to do it just for the fun of it..of course if i was perfect, my mindset would be different..like i wouldn't see performing chores as a negative thing. i would see it as something good? i have no idea what i'll see it as..i mean chores are chores right.. its a chore..so i have no idea...we can only imagine what a perfect world would be like.. Perfect...what is perfect anyway?? can something outside of our control be imperfect?? like the sunset..can a sunset ever be imperfect?? a sunset is just as it should be..it cannot be altered..we can't change it..it turns out exactly the way its supposed to..so can tomorrow's sunset be less perfect then today's one?? it might not be as lovely to watch as today's one but does that manke it any less perfect?? another example is the weather.."today's weather was perfect except for the rain" ..the weather turned out exactly the way its supposed to. so was it imperfect??
Its 6 already...i'm tired..going to sleep now...and i'll get up when i get up...
Its 4 30 in the morning..I haven't slept the whole night..went out just now and i left msn running..i came back around an hour ago to discover so many messages...one of it was from zhi wei..he wasn't happy that too many people were accessing his blog through my link..So STOP VISITING HIS BLOG!!! haha...I didn't know that so many people visit my blog..I didn't even know that people know about this blog...hmm...anyway later i stumbled upon Kenneth's blog..I knew he had a blog but i forgot about it..yah..so i added his blog to my links...yah... haizz...boring....i'm just stating events in the order they happened..how boring can i get...hahh.. got to go have breakfast now..yeah breakfast..at 440 in the morning..the fasting month has begun...yeah its torture...its not the hunger part..its the appeal and thought of mouth watering delicious food..chocolates, ice cream...but its about control..and sacrifice..that's what the fasting month is about right..and its not as though i'm deprived of junk food..i'm stuffing myself with loads of it after breaking fast everyday.. got to go eat..maybe i'll be back here after eating..maybe..just maybe..
Finally back from brunei...Its good to be back..never thought i'd miss singapore so much. Brunei is a terrible place..at least the jungles there are. The terrain is terrible. Its densely vegetated hilly terain..most of the time you're either going uphill or down..and going downhill is worse then uphill..trust me its easier to go uphill..more tiring but easier. When we finally completed our last exercise, buaya, the feeling was just damn good..then it got really really boring. we had 3 days to our flight back and we had absolutely nothing to do.. The only thing we could do was eat and sleep..but then my money ran out so all i could do was sleep. The last day before our flight, we had r&r..we went on a tour and that was the most boring tour i had ever gone on..it was torturous..we went to 2 museums and a water village. damn boring...I would never want to go there again.. The only good part of the tour was dinner. We had a buffet. And the food was great.. it was a good dinner..and i was fasting and it was the ideal way to break fast.. When we finally touched down in Singapore, everyone got so emotional.. and some of us cried...............just kidding..noone cried..we are army men..come on..haha...I'd cry when war is upon us..and then i'll run to the nearest shopping mall and prepare for urban fighting..when i get hungry, i'll just go down to cold storage and grap some bread, hotdogs, chips and chocolates..then when i get tired, i can go to a shop selling beds or massage chairs..and of course when the enemy realises that there are soldiers defending the mall, they'll just call an air stike or arti fire on our location and we all die... What's the purpose of war?? Why have war? Instead of war, why not the countrys' leaders just play chess and determine the winner or something..or the soldiers of the countries can go up against each other on battlefield..or even warcraft..in that way we can determine the winner and everyone's happy..If only that's the way it is..then we won't have to serve ns..i have 151 days to go..can't wait to ord..hahh...151more days..5 more months and i'm done..5 more months and i can do anything i want.. i can do what i'm doing now everday, anytime of the day..sitting in my room, listening to the radio and typing a blog, eating chocolates..hmm...zzz...boring..haha..i'm bored..i'm bored very easily..too easily..and now i'm bored of typing this blog
