010206 1922hrs Only 8 hrs before i fly off to thailand for the final mission of my national service. 26 months of training boils down to this..but i'm not nervous..i just want to get it over and down with..my oc as said many many times that this is the final mission..that we will be judged on how we perform for that one atec mission..to wake up...to throw away our ord mood..to demand standards from the man.. i've heard it too many times..over and over..i'm tired of hearing it..he keeps telling us that cos he sees us slackening...and are we slackening? yes we are..but we are always this way..but when it comes to the crunch time, we always rise to the occasion..we do what we have to do..sure we complain and grumble about everything but the important thing is that we do what we have to do..that's the way it always has been.. Right now..i rather not go thailand..i rather not fight the final mission..i rather slack here. but i know that once i'm there..i'll still feel the same way but when it comes to the final mission..i'll do it and do it well..so everyone stop trying to motivate me..stop trying to sweet talk.. I rather have facts thrown right at me...Army sucks..but you've got no choice but to do it..so too bad..as the army saying goes: lan lan suck thumb..
